Hi.
This journal will only be at use for the people I knew over time here. You know who you are you wonderful people.
after all...
strangers don't want to read a long journal about another stranger.
before we get to the main point, I don't want to make this a serious journal. So don't worry. Well I let you judge what you think.
Back to the main point. To all my Internet friends here,
thank you and sorry.
Why the thanks?
Cause the last two years on this website was wonderful. I don't care for the negative feedback I get in real life for going here cause it helps me find out more about truly amazing people.
The art though? I get to that later.
Why the sorry?
I can't keep up anymore.
Art, friends, society, work, emotions; pretty much life is making me think.
I been wanting to make a journal like this a month ago, then it was a few weeks ago, then finally it's a few days ago.
The late journal? Simply life I guess. I'm getting stressed. Time is coming to a close.
Why the time? I get to that later.
Who am I? I do hope I can answer that soon. But for now, lets to what we all usually go with,
Brox~
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note-
Apologies if I haven't used any emoticons which will make this journal boring.
Hmm kinda expected to get this journal done sooner, ah well, back to topic.
Say, have anyone know someone here (or any social site) as a internet friend but then they disappear off the face of the Internet or well die. Real death I mean. *sigh* It's sad. Heck, it could be that one person who became inactive for a long long time make you think they either gone or dead. It's a scary and sad thought actually.
Well that was a depressing thought, changing subject.
Say have anyone of you had that friend who's having a bad day and you want to cheer them up (real-life friend and Internet friend)? Does your words actually do anything?
They just mere words, nothing like it could change events.
Yet, that was something I think I wanted to do here. And I still want to comment something positive to everyone from artwork comments to simple greetings. But,
does my existence here mean anything?
Y'know, you could be thinking there right now like I'm bitching and you could be right.
I did notice that when it come to people viewing my artworks and journals, it really really decreased then it did in the past. But I understand that everyone have stuff going on in their life.
It's just that when it comes to me and my own artwork, I'm not like "yay I drew crap!" Or "Thanks!" Like I were. I could be ungrateful right now by saying (currently) comments and favs don't mean much to me anymore (even if they are small). Simply, what does it mean really to the actual person? A guy/gurl on the Internet click and typed, what else? This won't go out to everyone of course but to me now, it's just some text messages on a screen. When it comes to someone saying "are you okay?" I be like "Yeah! :-D" which in truth don't reflect my true emotions all the time. Heck, is there a point when people watch me at times? I don't even feel like I'm going anywhere with drawing except drawing for others then for myself.
It feels like I lost my colourful nature here for a while now (heh, that moment when you want to see a rainbow).
Am I just a shell from who I once were?
Damn it, I thought I weren't going make this sound depressing (unless you just see this as a text on a screen).
Y'know, life is a wonderous pain at times.
Currently a big thing for me is studies now. Right now those who are reading are likely different ages to me, young and older. Lets just make it short by saying my normal routine of school life will come to an end as I head for my final year (not counting stuff like collage). It's a wierd thought actually, years of your school life will soon be based on a piece of paper with a bunch of letters on it.
(Remember kids, try and work hard to get those or over those 'C')
It comes to a point where art lessons feel bland to me as it just seem like hard work to me. Then again, life is hard work.
It may comes for me to say this but, it's time for a long hiatus. No worries, I have no plan on leaving y'all like in forever.
Y'know (that I say this word a lot) there's a lot I still want to talk about with different parts of me saying different emotional views. But I should end things around here. Don't want to bore you awesome lot anymore.
To all that actually reach the end here and kinda care about me still, thanks. It brings me to that part about I don't mean anything anymore, even if that been part of my life when I get used by friends as just a form of entertainment. But I no need to dwell into my real self, for now.
Y'know when I say who really am? A shell of my former self. But I be honest, I do reflect at times my real self when it comes to friendship but sometimes I can be different in how you would imagine me (guess that's a reason why orignally created that OC group about using your OC as personas to yourself).
Ah so much to say, so little time.
What's my purpose now? To go and focus on my outside life a bit for now. Am I leaving? No. I don't plan on deactivating this account. But, my hiatus may last till I either fail or succeed my exams. I could come back around half terms (British way of saying breaks). But my true intent here is to come back fresh and new. By that, a new account will arise in future. I let you all know when that time comes if you can stick around long enough.
I could be on some other websites though from time to time as well.
I will check that message box from time to time but if you have something desperate to say, SEND THOUGH NOTES.
For now, I do what I can in replying to any messages or saying any early Bday messages.
Oh and a late message again,
thank you all for the Bday messages and the wonderful two years here. It may not mean much but ->
I would list down a bunch of wonderful people names here but you all know who you are~ :'3
Stay wonderful my friends~ <3
See ya all~
I do hope you all can forgive me and wait for me in the future~
~Brox
before we get to the main point, I don't want to make this a serious journal. So don't worry. Well I let you judge what you think.
Back to the main point. To all my Internet friends here,
thank you and sorry.
Why the thanks?
Cause the last two years on this website was wonderful. I don't care for the negative feedback I get in real life for going here cause it helps me find out more about truly amazing people.
The art though? I get to that later.
Why the sorry?
I can't keep up anymore.
Art, friends, society, work, emotions; pretty much life is making me think.
I been wanting to make a journal like this a month ago, then it was a few weeks ago, then finally it's a few days ago.
The late journal? Simply life I guess. I'm getting stressed. Time is coming to a close.
Why the time? I get to that later.
Who am I? I do hope I can answer that soon. But for now, lets to what we all usually go with,
Brox~
---
note-
Apologies if I haven't used any emoticons which will make this journal boring.
Hmm kinda expected to get this journal done sooner, ah well, back to topic.
Say, have anyone know someone here (or any social site) as a internet friend but then they disappear off the face of the Internet or well die. Real death I mean. *sigh* It's sad. Heck, it could be that one person who became inactive for a long long time make you think they either gone or dead. It's a scary and sad thought actually.
Well that was a depressing thought, changing subject.
Say have anyone of you had that friend who's having a bad day and you want to cheer them up (real-life friend and Internet friend)? Does your words actually do anything?
They just mere words, nothing like it could change events.
Yet, that was something I think I wanted to do here. And I still want to comment something positive to everyone from artwork comments to simple greetings. But,
does my existence here mean anything?
Y'know, you could be thinking there right now like I'm bitching and you could be right.
I did notice that when it come to people viewing my artworks and journals, it really really decreased then it did in the past. But I understand that everyone have stuff going on in their life.
It's just that when it comes to me and my own artwork, I'm not like "yay I drew crap!" Or "Thanks!" Like I were. I could be ungrateful right now by saying (currently) comments and favs don't mean much to me anymore (even if they are small). Simply, what does it mean really to the actual person? A guy/gurl on the Internet click and typed, what else? This won't go out to everyone of course but to me now, it's just some text messages on a screen. When it comes to someone saying "are you okay?" I be like "Yeah! :-D" which in truth don't reflect my true emotions all the time. Heck, is there a point when people watch me at times? I don't even feel like I'm going anywhere with drawing except drawing for others then for myself.
It feels like I lost my colourful nature here for a while now (heh, that moment when you want to see a rainbow).
Am I just a shell from who I once were?
Damn it, I thought I weren't going make this sound depressing (unless you just see this as a text on a screen).
Y'know, life is a wonderous pain at times.
Currently a big thing for me is studies now. Right now those who are reading are likely different ages to me, young and older. Lets just make it short by saying my normal routine of school life will come to an end as I head for my final year (not counting stuff like collage). It's a wierd thought actually, years of your school life will soon be based on a piece of paper with a bunch of letters on it.
(Remember kids, try and work hard to get those or over those 'C')
It comes to a point where art lessons feel bland to me as it just seem like hard work to me. Then again, life is hard work.
It may comes for me to say this but, it's time for a long hiatus. No worries, I have no plan on leaving y'all like in forever.
Y'know (that I say this word a lot) there's a lot I still want to talk about with different parts of me saying different emotional views. But I should end things around here. Don't want to bore you awesome lot anymore.
To all that actually reach the end here and kinda care about me still, thanks. It brings me to that part about I don't mean anything anymore, even if that been part of my life when I get used by friends as just a form of entertainment. But I no need to dwell into my real self, for now.
Y'know when I say who really am? A shell of my former self. But I be honest, I do reflect at times my real self when it comes to friendship but sometimes I can be different in how you would imagine me (guess that's a reason why orignally created that OC group about using your OC as personas to yourself).
Ah so much to say, so little time.
What's my purpose now? To go and focus on my outside life a bit for now. Am I leaving? No. I don't plan on deactivating this account. But, my hiatus may last till I either fail or succeed my exams. I could come back around half terms (British way of saying breaks). But my true intent here is to come back fresh and new. By that, a new account will arise in future. I let you all know when that time comes if you can stick around long enough.
I could be on some other websites though from time to time as well.
I will check that message box from time to time but if you have something desperate to say, SEND THOUGH NOTES.
For now, I do what I can in replying to any messages or saying any early Bday messages.
Oh and a late message again,
thank you all for the Bday messages and the wonderful two years here. It may not mean much but ->
I would list down a bunch of wonderful people names here but you all know who you are~ :'3
Stay wonderful my friends~ <3
See ya all~
I do hope you all can forgive me and wait for me in the future~
~Brox
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